Let’s Talk Babies
This has been something that I had gone back and forth with being in this industry. See, I was married now for 3 years, and I knew I wanted kids, but dang it, I hadn’t broke as an actor, yet. How can I support a kid when I can barely support myself? How can I possibly keep pursuing this crazy actor life, and resume acting classes, and go to auditions, with a baby????
Well, God had a plan for me. At 29 I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis which put me in the hospital for several days. I was paralyzed on the right side of my body, and the left side of my face. I went through a lot. But what I ultimately realized is that, that saying “Tomorrow isn’t promised,” is so true. I thought to myself, if I get better, and I KEEP waiting, there might be a day where I CAN’T have kids anymore, and I could STILL not have a career—and then, what? So I made up my mind.
After my stem cell treatment, and getting fully healed up from my relapse, my husband and I made the decision to “start trying.” Well, it was a long road, and we sadly lost a baby in the process. But then our dream came true. Eight months, later we found out we were pregnant again, with a baby girl. We were beyond happy, and beyond scared. What would it be like to add a whole new individual to our life, that in our mind, was not quite picture perfect? But we knew that we had love, and willpower, and that was going to be the greatest gift we could ever give our daughter, Ella Jolie.
Words can’t describe how my life has become fulfilled and meaningful after she arrived. Instead of her being the excuse for not making it in my career she became the WHY I HAVE TO MAKE IT in my career. I’ve never hustled more, worked more, or “adulted” more in my entire life. And because of her, I have booked MORE work as an actor than ever before.
So that saying, “You’re life is over when you have kids.” It’s just not true. Is it changed? Oh HELL yes, my friend, it is. And I am not saying that it’s easy, but it IS your choice whether you want it changed for the BETTER or for the WORST.
I want to be my daughter’s role model. And If she saw me give up on my dream, how can I ever tell her, to her face, to follow hers. We are so much stronger than we think. And I’ll just leave it at that.
I can’t tell you how many times that I have started a Blog, and never finished it. I once started a blog, Decode Hollywood, when I first moved to LA in 2007 after pursuing a career as a Broadway Star in NYC. I thought to myself, surely I would be able to...